I’ll identify something I want to change about myself, and then I’ll design a project to help me do it… For each of my deficiencies, I designed a project to help me confront it, which I hoped would help me transcend it. In a way, this worked. My life suddenly got interesting. People were curious. I always had outrageous stories to tell. I’d present these stories in intricate interactive frameworks of my own design, and I’d release them on the web.
Do you think narcissism has potential as a feminist tool?
Not really. Not for me, personally. I think things easily reconstituted as narcissism by old-fashioned male observers when evinced by women—like self-esteem, confidence, even measured & productive arrogance—are feminist tools, yes. A hundred per cent.
When you look in the mirror and only see you, not others like you, when you’re love with an image that does not extend beyond your own borders, what good does that do, really? I’m a narcissist but I’m also taught to find faces like mine attractive. I like selfies, I like other selfies of other women’s faces, I like selfies of my face, etc…. but, being white and hot in a conventional way, I would never call one of my own a #feministselfie. I’ll leave that to those women who don’t see hyper-idealized versions of their own beauty on television every minute.
Anger is meant to be acted on. It is not meant to be acted out. Anger points the direction. We are meant to use anger as fuel to take the actions we need to move where our anger points us. With a little thought, we can usually translate the message that our anger is sending us.
The study of music is the study of one’s own ear. That’s why it is not enough to simply listen to a harmony (such as a major second) and say, “I hear it.” You have to go so deeply into your own experience that you hear yourself hearing it.
You don’t need six weeks. You don’t even need to have a weekend. If you have intuition that’s drawing you towards something, which everyone does even in this moment right now, follow that intuition a little more tomorrow. Follow your heart just a little more tomorrow. Honor your intuition a little bit more with the features that you build, with the products that you build, the activities you do, the people you love, and over time, as you feed your intuition, it will get stronger, louder, bigger, bolder. Listening to your intuition will change your life. And it all starts with doing something that’s aligned a little more with your personal truth — tomorrow.
Sandra Bullock doing wire work on the set of Gravity
By MAL AHERN
When Sandra Bullock undresses in Gravity, she reveals less a body than a machine. This is workflow cinema
In Gravity’s ninety-plus minutes of screen time, Sandra Bullock’s body sheds hardly any fluid. Ninety minutes without vomiting. Ninety minutes without pissing, shitting, or breaking more than the lightest, most perfunctory sweat. Exceptions: a small spot of blood, easily forgotten, and a few tears, far more memorable. Bullock cries demurely, but she has to: Her face is just the backdrop for the scene’s real action. For as she cries, the invisible hands of a few hundred animators slowly peel each CGI tear off her face and launch the quivering orbs towards the audience — who are tempted, against all reason, to reach out and touch them.
Like many things in Alfonso Cuarón’s film, the airborne tears are both beautiful and inaccurate. “Tears wouldn’t float off of your eyes and face,” former astronaut Scott Parazynski explained when he fact-checked the film for New York Magazine’s blog. Tears would cling to Bullock’s eyes and form pools around them. Surface tension in zero gravity is “the strongest force up there.” It can turn an astronaut’s body against her. As Parazynski says, “it would be scary if you were to lose your cookies in the middle of a space walk.” Your vomit would stay glued to your face; “you could actually be blinded.”